Around the time of my eating disorder diagnosis, when i was deeply entrenched in my illness, my days (& nights) were filled with a constant torment from my eating disorder voice. This “voice” (which i later came to refer to as “neg”) is something that i would love to discuss more in the future, but for now, check out the video below from the lovely ladies at BodyMatters Australasia, for a fabulous introduction to the “eating disorder voice”.
Sometimes i still hear neg.
Most of the time it’s just negative chatter – nothing like the screaming torment i endured when i was still so entrenched in my disorder – but his negativity is still unwanted, & often frustrating.
Frustrating, because while i now very rarely buy into them, neg’s criticisms still, on occasion, play quietly in the back of my mind – a record of negativity, stuck on repeat.
One of the simplest ways that i have found to deal with this, is to drown out neg’s record of negativity, with one of positivity…
Enter lifeinfullcolour’s ‘Recovery’ playlist! 🙂
My ‘Recovery’ playlist, is a collection of songs that counter neg’s criticism. Some of the songs are “fighting” songs – songs that help me to feel empowered – some remind me of my beauty & my strength, & others simply make me happy 🙂
When i am sick of listening to neg’s record, i pull out my iPod, put my earphones in, & crank up the volume on my ‘Recovery’ record instead. Sometimes you might catch me singing or dancing along, but everytime you will see me smiling 🙂
This is not a complete list of songs from my playlist, but i hope you will find a small taste of positivity in their lyrics & tunes 🙂
- ‘Walking On Sunshine’ ~ Katrina & The Waves (Guaranteed to make me break out in a grin!)
- ‘This Is Who I Am’ ~ Vanessa Amorosi
- ‘So Beautiful’ ~ Superchick
- ‘Here Comes The Sun’ ~ The Beatles
- ‘You’ve Got The Love’ ~ Florence & The Machine
- ‘According To You’ ~ Orianthi
- ‘On A Mission’ ~ Gabriella Cilmi
- ‘Burn Your Name’ ~ Powderfinger
- ‘Video’ ~ India Arie
- ‘Don’t Stop’ ~ Fleetwood Mac
- ‘King Of Anything’ ~ Sara Bareilles
- ‘Stop Trying’ ~ Sia
- ‘Unwritten’ ~ Natasha Bedingfield
- ‘We’re All In This Together’ ~ Ben Lee
- ‘Just The Way You Are/Teenage Dream’ ~ Paulina ft Douglas James (below)
Other artists on my list, range from Alanis Morissette to the Travelling Wilburys!
Do you have a ‘Recovery’ playlist? Are there any songs that help you to feel more empowered, recognise your beauty, or feel more positive?